感谢普丽西
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我回到学校攻读心理学博士学位。高中时，我是班里的尖子生。但上了大学，怪事来了，很多像我一样聪明的女孩没继续深造。读硕士时，女同学更少。现在，在最高学府，我发现自己是班里唯一的女学生！但这挡不住我。
哦，抱歉，忘了自我介绍。我叫Faye Baylor，很快你们就能叫我“Faye Baylor博士”！好了，继续讲我的故事。
在高学位课程中，研究是学位的一部分。你得选个课题，设计实验验证，发表论文。有个教授导师帮你。我很幸运，导师是个体贴的女教授。不像我硕士时的男导师，她更会倾听，真正关心我。这安排让我很满意。
我绞尽脑汁想论文题目，但没灵感。于是去学生中心散心，点了杯咖啡，溜进有客座演讲的房间。今天请的是一位平等权益倡导者，正在热烈讨论同性恋、女同和跨性别者的待遇。讲者刚好聊到变装者。
校园里多是自由派，观众如你所料偏支持。但有个家伙强烈反对平等对待“那些人”。我认识几个女同，她们跟大家人，我觉得没啥不同。我还怀疑我的发型师Jackie是gay，但他特别好，懂得比我多的时尚和爱情电影，超酷。这家伙为啥觉得威胁？
但这家伙就是不放过讲者，不停攻击，连观众的嘘声都止不住他。那一刻，我灵感来了！论文的点子！
那天在美容院等理发，我跟一个男的聊了聊。他的举止和谈吐让我觉得他是gay。于是我把他介绍给Jackie，以为做好事。结果他反应激烈，怒气冲冲走了！
看着台下这家伙，他的姿态有种熟悉感，像我见过的gay朋友。他反对得那么狠，却让我怀疑他跟自己过不去。
理论一下冒出来：最恨“另类”生活方式的人，自己可能有这种倾向！他们讨厌自己，所以把恨转嫁到别人身上，怪别人“害”他们有这种感觉！
如果我是对的，这能解释很多！现在要验证。这家伙是完美实验对象。但我不能直说他，查他是不是“藏柜里”。得证明，但不告诉他。 以上内容来自hlib.cc。更多中文H小说尽在hlib.cc。
我想了个法子，马上觉得恶心。但想不出别的，只好用这招。散会后，我在走廊追上这位“刺头”。
“你好！”我说。
“嘿，美女。”他回。
“刚才你真厉害！只有你敢站出来说真话。”
我内心抓狂，但提醒自己，这是在演戏，为了研究。
我略微撩他，他反应平平。不是自夸，我一直挺漂亮。高中闺蜜叫我“金女”。我本可靠脸吃饭，但我更想靠脑子。现在没男友，没时间谈恋爱。我很会撩人，想让谁动心都行。这家伙没立刻上钩，我猜他要么已婚，要么没性欲，要么不喜欢女的！
我打听到他叫Henry Brown，单身，未婚，数学研究生。最恨变装者。
若我理论正确，他内心渴望变装。他恨变装者，因他们“诱惑”他想做。在他脑里，除掉他们，就能除掉诱惑。
所以，我得让他变装，向我承认欲望。
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我先暗示想约会。他果然请我出去。男人总觉得是自己主意。他可能跟哥们吹嘘有个金发美女迷他。我确实有目的，但不是他想的那种。我想看他穿裙子。
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我们约了几次。他不攻击性取向不同的人时，其实挺好。还挺帅，聪明。如果没这偏见，我可能真会喜欢他。
但我得保持冷静。我在做实验，不是谈恋爱。
约了五六次后，我开始测试。第6次，我说太累，问能不能在他家过夜。他独居公寓，完美适合计划：早上走时，我“忘”了内裤和胸罩，让他发现。
整天我都在想，他独自面对我的贴身衣物咋样。若他有变装冲动，可能试穿了。我特意用新的，若他穿，我能看出布料有没拉伸。
第二天我去他家，没提内衣。他也没说。他不急着还我，好兆头！我开始一点点“搬”进去，留化妆品，问能不能放几件衣服，方便我待那儿时换。
现在他衣柜有条裙子、几件可爱上衣、几套内衣。若我猜对，我的衣服会在我不在时被穿。我特意摆放好，若被动过，我能看出来。
几天后检查，胸罩果然被拿出来过。他要么穿了，要么拿出来摸。不管哪种，都是好兆头。我给了他很多机会穿我的衣服。我怀疑他在穿。现在得抓现行。
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我琢磨咋抓Henry现行。可以随时闯进去，赌运气。但时机不对，会失去惊喜。我总提前几小时电话，给他安全感，觉得有时间。
我发现他柜台上的备用钥匙，偷偷配了把，放回去，他没察觉。我随时能进门，得确保时机。
我用了学过的心理学老招，增加胜算：租了部变装主题的电影，周六下午带去他家。我知他不喜欢，编了个故事。
“我朋友Laurie在写论文，戏剧专业的。她给我这电影，我答应看完给客观意见。一起看好吗？” 以上内容来自hlib.cc。更多中文H小说尽在hlib.cc。
“没问题。”他说，没疑心电影内容。
前45分钟没问题。但变装部分一出，Henry果然暴怒。
“关了这垃圾！你知道我恨这个！恶心又错！”
“对不起，亲爱的，我不知是这种片！Laurie没告诉我！真抱歉。我知道你多讨厌男的穿裙子。”
“可不是！”他吼着冲出房间。
我暗笑。得手了。接下来的几小时，我跟他待着，他脑里全是变装。我故意提几句电影，确保他忘不了。
我走后，他想了几个小时。他有机会，衣柜里一堆我的漂亮衣服。若他真想变装，今晚准会。
日落后，我开车回他家，停在能看到他房间的车里。窗帘拉下，看不到。但他走动时，窗帘上有影子。
卧室灯光变暗，他拉上厚窗帘。窗帘加遮光？除非他真不想让人看。我再等，客厅窗帘现出影子。他侧身时，我看到胸部。身影明显凸出女性的胸形。现在是时候。
我上楼到他三楼公寓，悄悄用钥匙开门，轻轻转门把，推开。然后大声敲门，走进去。
“Henry？你在吗？我忘了拿那个破电影……”
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看到他穿我的衣服，我故意停住。我的胸罩塞满东西，像是真胸。他还穿了我的连裤袜，脸上化了妆，涂得一塌糊涂！
“Henry？”
“你来干啥？”他几乎低语。
“忘了电影。门没锁，我进来了。”我撒谎。
“不是你想的那样。”他说，妆下脸红了。
“那是啥？”我假装生气，“我留衣服在这儿方便换，结果我男友穿上了！我在爱一个想当女人的男人！你不是gay吧？你骗我……”
“不！停！不是那样的！”他急了。
我抓住他了。无路可逃。我胜了！理论被证实，毫无疑问。我会写论文，高分毕业。但我决定逗逗他，教训他。他那么偏执狭隘。我要让他长长记性。
“我感觉被侵犯！你穿我衣服！”我几乎喊。
“Faye！小声点！别人会听见！”
“听见我说你扮女的？你想当我吗，Henry？是不是？或许我该叫你Hazel。”
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“是的，Hazel Brown。听起来像狄更斯小说人物。”
“我不是Hazel！”他坚持。
“哦，你有别的名字？大多数变装者都有。扮女时，他们觉得自己是别人。你是Michelle？Wendy？Katie？”
“不！”他坚持。
“那是谁？快说！”我威胁。
“Priscilla。”他崩溃了。
“哦，好听的女名。我叫你‘Prissy’好了！”
他哑口无言。那肯定是他私下的昵称。
“好，Prissy，你让我心碎，假装不是你自己的人。我给你两个选择。”
“啥？”他虚弱地问。
“第一：我告诉所有人。让全校知道你是超级变装者！”
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“别这样！”他说。
“第二：让我再给你打扮，今晚跟我去酒吧。”
“不行！会被认出来！”他说。
“我弄完不会。而且，我们去女同酒吧。只有女的。你说讨厌她们，应该不认识谁。还是你有好多gay朋友，常混一起，没告诉我？”
“不！不是那样！求你！”
“一还是二？要我打给校报？”
他去拿酒冷静，我从包里掏出相机，拍了张照。
“嘿！”他说，“干啥？”
“保险。今晚你乖，我就给你胶卷。但你敢违背我，照片就给校报。懂吗，Prissy？”
“懂。”他说。
“懂啥？”
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“懂，主人。今晚我掌控你。你最好让我满意。”
“是，主人，我会的。”他说。
他眼神像小狗第一次学会跟人走时，彻底服了。他是我的了。
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我帮“Prissy”化妆，尽量让她美。她没怎么抗议。直到我牵她手出门，她才意识到我是认真的。她开始抱怨，我威胁几句，她闭嘴了。
我开车去家安静、灯光昏暗的本地酒吧，里面全是形形色色的女人，唯一共同点：都是女同（或对女同好奇）。我得承认，自己也去过几次。
我让Prissy跟我坐大厅中间的桌子，周围人来人往。她要么像男扮女，要么像很man的女孩。很多女人上下打量她。我看到个朋友在另一桌。
“Prissy，我去去就回。别离开这桌，懂？！”
“是，主人。”她低语。
我去找大学认识的朋友聊，聊最近的事，聊得很开心。我盯着Prissy，至少三个女人撩她，有个还坐她桌旁。
想象Henry的感受！他讨厌另类生活方式的人，现在自己公开扮成一个！他说只喜欢女的，现在被女的撩，却不能回应。看他局促不安，太爽了。
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我回桌时，一个超有女人味的金发女孩在撩Prissy。他肯定激动坏了，被这么美的女孩撩！但要保持她兴趣，Prissy得当女的。
“哦，你跟她一起？”金发女问。
“不，只是朋友。我走了，她归你。”我说。
我出门，瞥到Henry无助的眼神，金发女朝他扑去。
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我再没见过Henry。某种意义上。因为，我确实偶尔看到Prissy。Henry发现做Prissy时找到了自己，还爱上了酒吧遇到的金发小美女。他决定全职做女人，只为跟她有机会。她发现他是想变女的男人后，爱上了他。
我们都有了幸福结局。尤其我，我的论文拿了A+，以优异成绩毕业。全亏了Prissy。
Thanks to Prissy
by Jennifer White
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Here I was a back at school working on my Ph.D. in psychology. In high school, I had been at the head of my class. But when I went to college, it was strange because many of the other girls who were smart like me didn't continue on. And when I went for my masters, there were fewer of us yet. And now, at the highest level of education, I found that I was the only woman in the class. But that wasn't going to stop me.
Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't introduce myself. My name is Faye Baylor, and soon you'll be able to call me Dr. Faye Baylor! But anyway, back to my story.
When you are in higher education, you need to work on research as part of your degree. You choose some idea, design studies to test it, and publish a paper. You have a professor as a mentor to help you along the way. I was lucky enough to have found a caring woman as my mentor. Unlike the man I had to work with when I went for my masters degree, she was a better listener, and seemed to actually *care* about me. So I was very happy with the arrangement.
I was trying to come up with the idea for my paper, but I wasn't having any luck. So I took a break, and went to the student center. I ordered a coffee, then drifted into the room where they had guest speakers. The one they had selected for today was an advocate for equal rights. They were having a lively discussion of the treatment of gays, lesbians, and transgendered individuals. At the moment, the speaker was talking about cross dressers.
Most of the crowd, as you would expect at a college campus, was on the liberal side. But there was one guy who was violently opposed to treating 'them' equally. Now I had several lesbians, and they were people, just like anyone else. And I suspected that my hair dresser Jack was gay. But he was very nice, and I saw no reason that he should be threatening to this jerk. In fact, it was cool to know a man who knew more about fashion and romance movies than I did. Okay, 'suspected him to be gay' is too mild.
But as I was saying, this guy just wouldn't let up on the speaker. He kept at him, and even the boos from the crowd didn't stop him from harassing the speaker. That's when it hit me. The idea for my paper.
You see, one day I had been waiting for my hair appointment at the salon, and I had been chatting with this guy who was waiting too. His mannerisms and speech made me think he was gay. So I introduced him to Jack, thinking that I was doing a good thing. But this guy had this violent reaction to Jack, and he stormed out of there!
And looking at the heckler in the audience, I just caught something in his posture or something. He just had something about him which made me think of gay men I had met before. So he was one of the, but he was so staunchly against them.
The theory just popped into my head: the people who hate 'alternative' lifestyles the most, are ones who have urges for that lifestyle themselves! They hate themselves for it, so they transfer their hate onto others who live that way. They blame the others for 'making' them feel that way!
If my theory was true, then it would explain so much! Now all I needed to do was to test it out. This guy was perfect to test my theory on. But I needed to figure out a way to do it. I couldn't just go up to him and tell him I wanted to test if he was really in the closet, and denying his inner urges. I needed to prove it, but without telling him.
I thought of a way, but rejected it immediately. It sickened me. But try as I might, I couldn't think of anything else. So I was forced to go with my original thought. I waited until the meeting broke up, and tracked down Mr. Jerk in the hallway. 以上内容来自hlib.cc。更多中文H小说尽在hlib.cc。
"Hello" I said.
"Well hello there yourself" he said to me.
"I was impressed in there. You were the only one with enough guts to speak up and tell the truth" I said. Inside I cringed, but I reminded myself that I was playing a role, to do my research.
I flirted with him a bit, and he responded, but only mildly.