Destruction (対滅) ENG/CN

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This is a translation/rewrite of one of my favorite novels by the same name: 対滅.

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It was true love the moment I read it, even though it was via machine translation software. Because of this love, I wanted to translate it into English and I wanted to stay accurate to the original, which I felt was already perfect, merely cleaning up the translation.

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This... did not happen. The machine translation was about 9K words, and my English rewrite ended at 21366 words...!

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I am unsure whether it is classified as a translation or a rewrite, and this made it awkward when I wanted to translate it, so I could share the work I was proud of. Since it was so heavily based on the original, following the same plot and the same emotional notes, it felt disrespectful. Yet at the same time, I poured a lot of my own creative flair into the story, shaping the characters into my own version of them. I think the original product is something not entirely my own, yet it isn't a soulless copy either.

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With this in mind, I translated it into Chinese, but not Japanese, in which the original was written. I want to share the original story and my unique take on it with new readers, but I don't want to overstep... as I am still waiting for the original author to reply to my messages and initial request. I can only hope that my compromise doesn't appear as rude!

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Here is my English take on this story: [jump:2]

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This is where you can read the original: https://www.pixiv.net/novel/show.php?id=18931097

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这是对我最喜欢的一本同名小说《対滅》的翻译/重写。

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在我读到它的那一刻，我就爱上了它，尽管它是通过机器翻译软件翻译的。因为这份爱，我想把它翻译成英文，我想保持对原作的准确性，我觉得原作已经很完美了，只是对翻译进行清理。

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这......并没有发生。机器翻译大约是9千字，而我的英文重写结束时是21366字......！我不确定这是否属于 "不合格"！

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我不确定它是被归类为翻译还是改写，这让我在想翻译的时候很尴尬，所以我可以分享我引以为豪的作品。由于它在很大程度上是基于原作，遵循相同的情节和相同的情感笔记，所以感觉是不尊重的。但与此同时，我在故事中倾注了大量自己的创意，将人物塑造成我自己的版本。我认为原始产品是不完全属于我自己的东西，但也不是一个没有灵魂的副本。

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考虑到这一点，我把它翻译成中文，但没有翻译成日文，因为原文是用日文写的。我想与新的读者分享原作的故事和我对它的独特理解，但我不想越俎代庖......因为我仍在等待原作者对我的信息和最初的请求作出答复。我只能希望我的妥协不会显得很无礼！

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这是我的英文（现在已被机器翻译成中文）版本的故事：[jump:3]

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原版小说可以在这里找到：https://www.pixiv.net/novel/show.php?id=18931097

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I woke up with tears in my eyes, having dreamed of my mother again.

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Caught between dreams and reality- I thought I could see the image of my mother’s back as she left that day.

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The image of her graceful back was the last memory I have of her, because she never returned, and I was left alone.

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The morning sun, shining through the cracks of the curtains, woke me, when I’d much rather have stayed dreaming.

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The house was quiet, absent the sound of her footsteps as she got ready for the day.

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Now it was just me.

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“I’m heading off,” she used to say as she stepped out of the house, waving goodbye.

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As young as I was, I’d charge up the stairs to watch out my bedroom window as she walked away. Her beautiful black hair, long and straight as though drawn with a straight line of ink would always contrast the bright morning sky.

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Looking out of the window, I could almost see that scene once again. Her narrow back walking down the street, her hair swaying in the wind.

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Maybe… if on that day, I’d banged on the window and cried out-

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‘Please don’t go! Please don’t leave me alone!’

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She would have turned around and come back to me.

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Stayed with me.

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I didn’t though, so now I can’t see my mother anymore.

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It’s been ten whole years since that day.

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After I had walked for a short while, on my way to the gathering point, I heard the sound of rapidly approaching footsteps.

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I forced down a helpless groan yet plastered an elegant smile on my face as I braced myself for the impending annoyance.

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“Mizuho Seeen-paiiii---!” An overly familiar voice cried out. “Good morning!”

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“Kazuha-kun, good morning,” I turned to greet politely with a gentle nod of my head.

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Kazuha-kun was a junior whose walk to the gathering point overlapped with mine. He was never rude and seemed to respect me a great deal, always being courteous- if not a little overly friendly.

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Despite this I found Kazuha-kun to be irksome for two reasons.

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The first-

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“I didn’t sleep great last night at all, Mizuho-senpai! Did you sleep okay?”

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I don’t want to talk about it.

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“I had the tastiest orange for breakfast, Mizuho-senpai. What did you have?”

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Did I ask about what you had for breakfast?

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-was that Kazuha talked a lot. His mouth was like a machine gun firing relentlessly.

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The second reason-

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“That’s all you ate? Ahah, I thought you would eat more Mizuho-senpai, considering your…” He laughed, his words ending suggestively.

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-was that I frequently felt his eyes roaming lecherously over my body. In fact, even as we walked toward the gathering point together, I could feel his eyes digging into my breasts and buttocks.

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I had never brought it up, nor blamed him. After all, his eyes are his own and I was raised to be always polite and elegant by my mother. Perhaps she had foreseen that I would one day have a body that people find it hard to pull their eyes away from.

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Whilst I have never blamed