Disclaimer.
This is a translation/rewrite of one of my favorite novels by the same name: 対滅.
It was true love the moment I read it, even though it was via machine translation software. Because of this love, I wanted to translate it into English and I wanted to stay accurate to the original, which I felt was already perfect, merely cleaning up the translation.
This... did not happen. The machine translation was about 9K words, and my English rewrite ended at 21366 words...!
I am unsure whether it is classified as a translation or a rewrite, and this made it awkward when I wanted to translate it, so I could share the work I was proud of. Since it was so heavily based on the original, following the same plot and the same emotional notes, it felt disrespectful. Yet at the same time, I poured a lot of my own creative flair into the story, shaping the characters into my own version of them. I think the original product is something not entirely my own, yet it isn't a soulless copy either.
With this in mind, I translated it into Chinese, but not Japanese, in which the original was written. I want to share the original story and my unique take on it with new readers, but I don't want to overstep... as I am still waiting for the original author to reply to my messages and initial request. I can only hope that my compromise doesn't appear as rude!
Here is my English take on this story: [jump:2]
This is where you can read the original: https://www.pixiv.net/novel/show.php?id=18931097 以上内容来自hlib.cc。更多中文H小说尽在hlib.cc。
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这是对我最喜欢的一本同名小说《対滅》的翻译/重写。
在我读到它的那一刻，我就爱上了它，尽管它是通过机器翻译软件翻译的。因为这份爱，我想把它翻译成英文，我想保持对原作的准确性，我觉得原作已经很完美了，只是对翻译进行清理。
这......并没有发生。机器翻译大约是9千字，而我的英文重写结束时是21366字......！我不确定这是否属于 "不合格"！
我不确定它是被归类为翻译还是改写，这让我在想翻译的时候很尴尬，所以我可以分享我引以为豪的作品。由于它在很大程度上是基于原作，遵循相同的情节和相同的情感笔记，所以感觉是不尊重的。但与此同时，我在故事中倾注了大量自己的创意，将人物塑造成我自己的版本。我认为原始产品是不完全属于我自己的东西，但也不是一个没有灵魂的副本。
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考虑到这一点，我把它翻译成中文，但没有翻译成日文，因为原文是用日文写的。我想与新的读者分享原作的故事和我对它的独特理解，但我不想越俎代庖......因为我仍在等待原作者对我的信息和最初的请求作出答复。我只能希望我的妥协不会显得很无礼！
这是我的英文（现在已被机器翻译成中文）版本的故事：[jump:3]
原版小说可以在这里找到：https://www.pixiv.net/novel/show.php?id=18931097
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I woke up with tears in my eyes, having dreamed of my mother again.
Caught between dreams and reality- I thought I could see the image of my mother’s back as she left that day.
The image of her graceful back was the last memory I have of her, because she never returned, and I was left alone.
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The morning sun, shining through the cracks of the curtains, woke me, when I’d much rather have stayed dreaming.
The house was quiet, absent the sound of her footsteps as she got ready for the day.
Now it was just me.
“I’m heading off,” she used to say as she stepped out of the house, waving goodbye.
As young as I was, I’d charge up the stairs to watch out my bedroom window as she walked away. Her beautiful black hair, long and straight as though drawn with a straight line of ink would always contrast the bright morning sky.
Looking out of the window, I could almost see that scene once again. Her narrow back walking down the street, her hair swaying in the wind.
Maybe… if on that day, I’d banged on the window and cried out-
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‘Please don’t go! Please don’t leave me alone!’
She would have turned around and come back to me.
Stayed with me.
I didn’t though, so now I can’t see my mother anymore.
It’s been ten whole years since that day.
-
After I had walked for a short while, on my way to the gathering point, I heard the sound of rapidly approaching footsteps.
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I forced down a helpless groan yet plastered an elegant smile on my face as I braced myself for the impending annoyance.
“Mizuho Seeen-paiiii---!” An overly familiar voice cried out. “Good morning!”
“Kazuha-kun, good morning,” I turned to greet politely with a gentle nod of my head.
Kazuha-kun was a junior whose walk to the gathering point overlapped with mine. He was never rude and seemed to respect me a great deal, always being courteous- if not a little overly friendly.
Despite this I found Kazuha-kun to be irksome for two reasons.
The first-
“I didn’t sleep great last night at all, Mizuho-senpai! Did you sleep okay?”
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I don’t want to talk about it.
“I had the tastiest orange for breakfast, Mizuho-senpai. What did you have?”
Did I ask about what you had for breakfast?
-was that Kazuha talked a lot. His mouth was like a machine gun firing relentlessly.
The second reason-
“That’s all you ate? Ahah, I thought you would eat more Mizuho-senpai, considering your…” He laughed, his words ending suggestively.
-was that I frequently felt his eyes roaming lecherously over my body. In fact, even as we walked toward the gathering point together, I could feel his eyes digging into my breasts and buttocks.
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I had never brought it up, nor blamed him. After all, his eyes are his own and I was raised to be always polite and elegant by my mother. Perhaps she had foreseen that I would one day have a body that people find it hard to pull their eyes away from.
Whilst I have never blamed him, never scolding him or admitting to him that his perverted gaze is as clear to me as the morning sun… it doesn’t mean I have to enjoy him drooling over me.
We continued to walk as I tried to ignore both his gaze and his questions until he asked an important question.
“Mizuho-senpai, how can I become as strong as you? I want to fight with you, the ‘Strongest Demon Hunter’, as soon as possible!”
Unlike his other questions, which I could answer without much thought, this question was not one I could take lightly.
As he said, I am Mizuho, titled: the Strongest Demon Hunter.
I was given this title because out of those who hunt Demons-
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I’m the strongest.
Whilst many are unaware, Demons do exist. Lurking in the shadows as their influence harms the world and its people.
The reason the public can remain so blissfully unaware is because of the efforts of Exorcists like me, who exterminate Demons without anyone noticing.
As we walked, I performed my role as his senior Exorcist, carefully advising Kazuha on how he could get stronger, and soon we arrived at the gathering point for Demon Exorcists.
This gathering point wasn’t anything special, not hidden underground or in a gigantic facility. It was a simple and modest two-story house, almost unremarkable in every way.
The one thing worth noting about this house: was that it had a lovely front garden.
“Oho- good morning,” A gentle voice called out from inside the house’s colorful and creative garden. “You two are early this morning!”
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The voice belonged to Azami-san, the elderly Exorcist in charge of this gathering point. Azami-san and I had known each other for… a long time.
Only back then- I was unaware of the true purpose of this house.
Opening the slightly rusted front gate, I stepped into the garden to see Azami-san on her knees, doing some gardening. Being too old for active duty, Azami-san had become the local ‘Coordinator’, the person in charge of tracking Demons and coordinating the local Exorcists.
Due to my position as the ‘Strongest Demon Hunter’, the hierarchy between Azami-san and me was a little awkward- with my position actually being higher than hers.
Strictly speaking, she should refer to me by rank and perform a salute, but since we have known each other for so long, and she even worked with my mother, I referred to her casually as ‘Azami-san’, and she referred to me as ‘Mizuho-chan when we were alone.
“Good morning, Azami-san,” I said, stepping forward to help her get up. “I just happened to walk a little quicker today.”
“Good morning, Coordinator-Sensei.” Kazuha-kun bowed, referring to Azami-san by her designated rank, unlike me.
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Despite him ostensibly greeting Azami-san, I could feel him seizing the chance to peep up my skirt. Whilst I dress my curvy body modestly, meaning his attempt to peep at my buttocks would fail, I still felt my cheek start to twitch in annoyance.
Azami-san, noticing this, shot me a smile, her wizened face showing great empathy